jenn

01:07 pm: so this time its been aggggggggggges
hey, so im getting wrong off gem n dani for not updating this so here it goes. Well whats been happenin. I've failed one driving test then passed the next time :) so jenn is driving now....watch out people of sunderland. Went to leeds fest, didnt have as good a time as the year before due to circumstances i dont want to get in to. But it was still great. Im now at uni, doing forensic computing, but i hate it and want to change courses. other than that i aint been up to much except drinking lots and lots.
It's nearly xmas :) got my prezzies off gem n dani this morning. Gem got me my fall out boy ticket and a 3D greenday poster, you've gotta love gem, i mean a 3d billy joe on my wall, i'll never leave my room again. Dani got me smallville season 3 which i've been wanting to see for aggggggggges, so :) They're comin over mine after uni to get thier presents from me. I'm having trouble trying to get shells prezzie tho. I want to get her funeral for a friend ticket for her but its sold out and i cant get an ebay account so that sucks coz i want to go to that gig as well. So shells birthday is coming up, and i'm helping steve throw her a cocktail party :) me cant wait for that. Except the fact that im gonna be rough as hell for work at 8 in the morning the next day, seems as steve has told shell she can have the bed, so im gonna have to sleep on the floor somewhere or go home which means no drinking for me :( So yeah for now thats about it, coz gem n dani who told me to update this in the first place are now complaining im taking too long so toodles ..................

09:52 am: Well i havent wrote in here for agesssssssssss. So whats been happening. Well its now about two weeks till my driving test *crapping myself*. But got my car now so cant wait till i can drive around without my mam.

Well steve just got pissed off that i'm on here, and went to play his guitar in the other room.

My mam has just come back from being away for two wekks. Had a fun time, other than when we were out one monday night and laura invited three randoms back to my house, so i was like fuck that they're not comin back, so instead she invited this other steve, so i just said fuck it and invited shell down and then my steve came over.

So had a couple of good weeks.

Been hangin out with shell lots :) We went job hunting yesterday. She got a job straight away at the pet shop, so she gets to play with al;l the cute animals. Now she can save up to go away with me :)
I am wanting a job for a couple of nights a week, just for some extra cash.

Well thats bout all, i aint been up to much.....

03:18 pm: So here i am at college again, but hopefully this is the last time as i have just been to get signed off my course YEY!!!!! Me n shell are sitting in the ilc as she is supposed to be doing work but shes just checking out photos from download lol. Making me all jealous that i wasnt there.

So yeah my step-dads friends daughter is selling her car and Terry is buying it for me. It's only a citoren Saxo, but hell yeah its a car :) It's got five doors and its white. Jens getting her first car lalalalalala. Well have to get my ass into gear and pass my test now, gonna book it when i get paid, which is next week so shouldnt take long.

If Gem or Leanne reads this I am going to infusion tonight, should be there just after 7.

Well any hoo toodles..........

10:13 am: Last day
So it's the last day of college, technically, that is hopeing jean signs us off tutorial, not much hope really. Not going out tonight, not too bothered tho, just looking forward to goiing out next week.

So shell has just abandoned me for download festival, nah hope she has a great time, she deserves it.

One day i'm off work and the sun was out this mornin, but i had to come to college, now that i'm ready to go home it looks like theres gonna be rain, bloody typical isnt it :(

Staying at steves on friday night, then shock horror he is coming over mine on saturday (he never comes to mine). Had a silly argument the other day, but it's ok now i think.

Any wayz gotta go catch my bus now....

07:36 pm: So me n shell had our girly night which was very fun. Lots of pig out food and yummy wine.

I'm at danis at the mo, we are going for a meal in a bit as its her birthday today so HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANI!!!!!

I'm staying at steves tonight, then we get to spend some time together tomorrow, so that should be nice.

I was all bored at work today, seems as i've been at work nearly everyday this week, i'm fed up. So i was sitting all bored and thinking bout Florida next year, it's so long away it sucks. Shell really needs to get a job so she can afford to come hopefully she will.

Any wayzzzzzz gotta go now so gem and dani can play halo 2 (they need the internet connection so they can play online)

01:18 pm: so i aint updated in a while, aint been up to much, except work *yawns*. I have to go to middlesbrough on friday to work there for the day.

Me n Shell decided not to go out tonight, but to instaed have a girly night in with movies wine and general pig out food. Yum.

I'm at college at the mo, doing some last minute work, then me n shell are off to the town to get some nibbles for tonight.

09:19 am: So I went out last thursday, not that i can remember much. Started out on thursday in photography with shell, we were supposed to be staying behind to catch up, but that never happened. Me stay behind in college to do extra work, what a daft idea, did i actually think i would. So we went for our healthy dinner in college of a sandwich and an apple. Then we headed over to morrisons, and after lots of confusion over costs of vodka we headed back to shells. Oooo i got sooooooo drunk there, was talkin away to her brother about nothingness. Then we realised we were late so we got the bus to mine. This was at like 6:30, we were supposed to be in bar me at 8 but never made it there till 8:40 where the time went i have no idea. I remember popping into work on the way out and making a complete fool of myself *cringe*.
So shell was throwing up in the toilets in debenhams, then we stumbled round to bar me. Jamie, sophie and michael, with some other randoms where there. I could hardly drink, think i had only one vodka and red bull, 1 shot of apple corkys and 1 bottle in there, usually its like 5 of each in there. Then shell threw up again lol, so we had to catch up with people in modo, cant remember getting the drink in there but i had sex on the beach and an orgasm. I remember finding that really funny on the night. Then i saw some people i know from college and i was talking to them, then one of them started meeting shell and that was them glued together for the rest of the night lol. I cant remeber much of flares and then we went to diva, bumped into steve, so i paid him in, then i went to the toilet and when i came back he'd been kicked out. Went outside to see where he was going, and coz he was really really pissed he was being nasty to me (bloody men). So i got upset coz he kept telling me to fuck off, (how nice of him). Then he left me in the street crying (again how lovely of him), so i went back in. I couldnt enjoy myself after that, and coz i was supposed to be staying at his that night anyway i went there. He was being really pissed but at least he wasnt being nasty any more. Then i had to get up early in the morning to go to college, got i was wrecked in the morning.

Then i met shell at dinner time for a....yes you've guessed.....a subway yum. Then after college that afternoon we decided to go for a tex mex platter in jameos. And we agreed it would be our last one coz we are getting addicted to them as well.

I had to go to work on sat, but shell met me for dinner and we went to jameos for a burger, (my diet is going straight out the window).

I stayed at steves on sat night, i got there before he got in from work and talked to sarah while doing my coursework. I was talking bout how steve was being with me on thursday night, and i got all angry that he hadnt apologised for it. So when he came in from work i was in a bit of a mood. Then the cheeky git started asking me for an early birthday present, and i was like NO!!! But anywayz i'm off up his after college, then i'm meetin shell for another subway lol.

Well that was a long and in depth entry lol.......

03:46 pm: subway yum yum
So it's megaday at work today means i'm at work from 6 till 11 at night, boring *yawns*.

Not been up to much except eating lots of subway sandwiches with shell.
Going out tomorrow night, cant wait me just wants to get drunk, and by some miricle i'm not at work tomorrow night either, so i can drink before going out yey :)

I decided i'm staying behind in photography with shell tomorrow so i can get my stuff finished coz i'm really far behind. Then me n shell are gonna go to morrisons and see if we can get her an application form, coz she really needs a job asap to save up for florida. Then were gonna go to hers so she can get ready for the night, then we are going to mine to drink while i get ready then we are headin down to bar me to meet up with who evers out.

I'm now sharing a tent with shell for leeds coz she managed to get a ticket yey!!! It's gonna be cool this year, me gem dani and shell will all have to go shopping for alcohol and stuff.

Then i'll get my friend simon to get us some dope, which he already said he would, so long weekend of music, alcohol and getting high :)

11:06 am: blah
So i aint been up to much at the weekend, friday night shell came down mine for a bit. Then i had to go to work on saturday :( but shell came to visit and came on my dinner with me, we went to subway yumm. Then steve came in to give me a teddy he had won me while he was at the beach. So when i got home on saturday my mam and terry were drinking, so i sat and had a drink with them, then my mam got really drunk. lol. She started going on about me going on holiday with them, she says she feels guilty leaving me, i couldnt get her to understand i like having the peace and quiet lol. So she asked if i would come away with them next year and she said i could take a friend if they could pay for it themselves. So i've asked shell and she said yes, so we are going to florida next yr yey!! We just have to come up with a way to get shell lots of money, coz it's gonna be expensive. Like £700 without the cost of the theme park tickets. oh well we will find a way.

So on sunday i had a lie in then went down my dads for a bit then went to meet shell. We went to jamesons and had a couple of jugs of alcohol, then decided to have a yummy tex mex platter which we have got addicted to. Then we went to greens for a drink and decided we must go for food there one time, then we went to bar me and i finally got a tribus card so no more paying in for me on a thursday night :)

We were gonna be pigs and go for a subway but they had NO BREAD. What kind of a sandwhich shop runs out of bread, disgraceful. But probably better in the long run as me n shell are on diets and we had already had a tex mex platter, which is not exactly diet friendly.

My manager just rang me and she needs me to work this afternoon, she needs me there asap so i get to work in my jeans and download t shirt lol.

Any way i'm staying at steves tonight, i aint seen him properly since last monday, except when he popped in to give me that teddy on sat. So hopefully its not gonna start to be like that again, only seeing him once a week.

03:45 pm: Went for lunch with shell yesterday, we went to jamesons and she ended up skipping her afternoon lesson and we had three jugs in there. Then laura came down and we went shopping. I went home to get changed then went to lauras for a drink. We met shell, gem and dani on the bus. We went to bar me and met up with jamie and nick. I had vodka and red bull and vk cherrys. Then we went to modo and me and shell shared two jugs of sex on the beach. The gem and dani went off to baroque. Me laura shell nick and jamie had fun in modo, then we went to flares where scary alan was at work. The we headed off to baroque which was empty nearly when we got there. Gem and dani were still there and then they totally disappeared off to diva without us. So we went up in a bit. Got really bored tho by 1 and left, it was way too packed and people were just being annying. Laura went for chips and then we went home. We got out the taxi at the top of the street and we sat down and talked for bout half an hour. I was freezing by the time i got home.

I went to subway with shell for dinner, and made the effort to get the 141 for gem and turned out she wasnt even on it.

Had a pretty crappy day this afternoon. Shell asked me to go to hers but i may just stay in coz i'm tired. Have to go to work tomorrow. I'm not looking forward to going home, my mam and terry were shouting this morning and as usual my mam found a way to bring me into it and make me feel shit.

09:10 am: two faced
i'm fed up of people bein two faced behind my back. It hurts to find out, people i considered friends are like that. Have noticed lately how selfish people are getting. So people make new friends and move on, yeah i get that. But if people have problems with me, say it to my face not behind my back. So i have a boyfriend, so what if i talk about him a lot, it's only coz i'm happy. Sorry if you cant understand that, thats not my problem.

Shell bought me a necklace as a thank you present for being there for her through all her troubles. It really upset me coz i thought where were people when me n steve broke up, they didnt care, i was alone. Ironically the only person i had was steve. But on a lighter note the necklace is pretty, so thanks to shell :) i love it, but still insist she really didnt have to. It's nice to have someone who appreciates my friendship and doesnt take it or me for granted.

I think i've just reached a point where i'm fed up and cant be arsed any more.

I wonder how some people can live in a world where its all about them, sod it to any one else. It's always me me me. God thats so frustrating, i mean everyone has problems, they may not be as bad as yours, but they still may need to talk about it and for you to listen. I feel like i dont have that any more with you. You dont care bout me any more, it's like you've out grown me or something. I dont even think you realise how sad and lonely you have made me feel. Your too oblivious to any ones problems except your own. God i'm so worked up. I need to chill.
I'm going up steves after college, yes, STEVE STEVE STEVE. ooo i've metioned his name more than once, shock fucking horror.
Look you know who you are, i think we need to talk, that is if you can spare me the time. I dont want to feel like this about you. I really dont, i just hope you can understand why i feel this way. Get in touch.

09:19 am: Weekend
So on friday night I was going for a meal with my mam and step dad to fiume, my fave italian restaurant. So any wayz my step dad finds out his siter has died like 20 mins before we are supposed to leave. He was really upset bless him but he said he still wanted to go out. So we got through there and had a drink coz we were a bit early. I had lasange which was yummy. And despite the crappy seating next to the door where it was cold, it remains my fave italian. So I went home after that and slept coz i was really tired from the night before. On saturday my mam went to southhampton for a wedding and I had the house to myself for the weekend. I went to the town for some alcohol for the night coz steve was staying over. I wasnt sure whether to get much co I was feeling really ill, I considered going to the doctors coz all under my chin started acheing and swelled slighlt, so i was thinking shit the mumps have finally caught up with me. But the swelling went down, but my chin i still hurting. So after that I went to my dads to see him, we watched a film together then i had to go meet steve. We started drinking when we got to mine, but i wasnt feeling too good so i only had a couple of alcopops. Steve however was enjoying the peach schnapps. He was quite pissed, while i just wanted to sleep. He kept me up till 4:30 in the morning, coz he wasnt tired.

On sunday he asked me over to his nanas for dinner. I was a bit wierd about going incase i was carrying the mumps, i dont fancy being the one to pass it on to his little cousins. But i felt a bit better so i went. After that i met up with laura in town coz she wanted to buy something. Then we went back to mine a had a couple of drinks, she decided she wanted to go out on the night and as I had nothing to do any way i thought i might as well. We had a really good time. I was staying at steves that night and laura kept asking me to take her to his with me, and i was like no. So in the black bull she latched on to this 31 year old. She wasnt meeting him or anything, but he came with us to idols. By the time we got there i had to leave in like 15 minutes, so he bought us a drink each, then i had to go. I was a bit funny about leaving her with him so i made her promise to ring me when she got home. When she did ring me she was at his house. I wasnt too happy bout that but what can i do, if she wants to go back to 31 yr old mens houses that she hardly knows its up to her aint it. I went to the chinese and bout some food for me n steve, and then i met him on the bus. Laura rang me about a million times when we were in bed, which was slightly annoying coz i wanted to go to sleep. When she rang me in the morning she assured me sha hadnt done anything with him. She would have told me if she had. ( I hope ) any wayz i'm meeting her in town later.

Leannes birthday is on tuesday, so hopefully i will make it for that. I'm not sure if Gem is coming, so it's complicated if shes not coz i wont be able to afford to come out and the taxi home by myself. So hopefully i can get that all sorted out.

10:13 am: Birthday
So i had a great time yesterday. After college I went to get my hair done and had my first legal drink in the hairdressers lol. Got home to find my mam had put up loads of my baby pictures round the house. How embarrassing. Then I phoned Gem and she came down and we started drinking. Then Laura came down when she finished work and then shell. Shell had bought me apple sourz so i gave every one shots, yum. Then the lads arrived, and steve was very very pissed. Steve had bought me roswell dvds, a nightmare before xmas game and a really really nice ring. Then Gem and Andrea arrived and had bought me a corkys set with shot glasses. Will be drinking that when i recover from this hangover. Dani came over aswell so yey! bless her tho she couldnt come out with us, but i'm still glad she got to come over. My mam had bought me a really big and sickly looking cake which was pretty, so i blew out my candles. Then we all went for the bus to town and went to bar me. Then nick and jamie turned up amongst other people. Everyone was buying me drinks so i was struggling to drink them all. Then we went over to modo and Leanne bought a jug that we shared. We wernt in there long then we went to baroque. Cant remember much from there except someone giving me a really sickly shot of something. Then it was off to diva where I git to walk in with Gem for the first time yey. Normally i would walk in by myself as having no ID i'm less likely to get stopped by myself. lost loadsa people after that. Gem was there then gone and i have no idea where she went as she hasnt come into college this morning. I expect shes feeling a bit rough. So Steve, marzy and laura convinced me to go back to steves with them. But i had to get my bolognese pizza first. That was very yummy. When we got back to steves, me n steve just went upstairs. I had a grand total of two hours sleep, now i'm completely buggered in tutorial. Had to come to college in last nights clothes with the exception of sarahs top. Just been to see my lecturer and he says if i go see him about my pre release material at 11:30 i dont have to come in this afternoon. My mam is going away tomorrow so Steve is staying with me. My mam is taking me for a meal tonight, i cant even think about food right now. Hope i feel better for then.

11:13 am: Mumps
So the outbreak of mumps around me is making me increasingly worried. 18th Birthday is tomorrow and if i get the mumps i'll cry. I'm excited for tomorrow tho, cant wait to go out. Aint been out properly in a while. Except the other Monday in infusion, but i was extremely pissed and cant remember much.

So I saw a girl get knocked over the other day and i cant get the sound it made out of my head. Was really weird.

I cant wait for the leeds festival either, i know it's agessssss away, but i cant help getting excited.

09:09 am: Birthday in three days!!! Don't know why i'm so excited. I'm just looking forward to having a night out with my mates i suppose.

So Dani has come down with the mumps and now i'm even more worried that i'm going to get them. I don't really care, just as long as they come up next week not this week, i don't accept the mumps as a suitable birthday present.

My mam and step dad are away this weekend, so house to myself yey! Steve is staying over, I'm gonna get some alcohol and we're gonna have a cocktail night. Just get pissed and watch some movies and pig out on pizza. I also just found out the parents have booked a holiday in july for two whole weeks. So yey, two weeks of peace and quiet from them :)

09:32 am: :)
So I couldnt bring myself to update before, but back to college now and everything is back to normal. Well me and Steve broke up just before the holidays, and everytime i came to update i just couldnt bring myself to say it. We tried to stay friends which sorta went ok, but last sunday we got back together and i was so thrilled. I tried my hardest to let go of us and i just couldnt. I tried to convince myself i was OK, and talking bout it with Gem and Dani made me feel like I could work this out and feel better but it just wouldnt happen. Any way everting feels better now :)

Looking forward to leeds. Ordered my ticket with Gem and Dani yey!!!! Just checked the rumours and things are looking mint.

My birthday is in 10 days. So leanne if you read this you gonna come out and buy me a drink? Thursday the 21st we'll be in the usual places. Your welcome to come.

So any wayz gonna get back to my assignment.....

02:41 pm: argh hungovernes :(

09:15 am: So supposed to be doing esearch for photogaphy at the moment, but i cant be arsed. Going out tonight with Gem and Dani, cant wait for that coz i aint been clubbing properly in a while. Had fun yesterday embarrassing dani in front of her date. Found out college might be cancelled next wednesday yey.......

So funeral for a friend are coming back to newcastle going with gem, dani, louise and hopefully leanne and some others.

Keep talking bout leeds festival and getting all excited which isn't good coz it's not for agggggggggeees yet. :( wish it was soon.

09:21 am: So had to go to work all day friday and saturday which was very boring. Then i went to jamesons and sirens on the saturday night, was quite drunk and i slept at steves. Had to get up and go to my dads on sunday. Was craving corn on the cob for some strange reason, so i made my dad buy some and cook it for me, yummy. Watched supersize me with my dad and i'm now officially off macdonalds, yuk.

Went to see hide and seek with dani on sunday night that was good plus dani bought me cheesy natchos, they were really sickly after a while tho. I'm off college this afternoon, gonna just go home and laze about. Would go see steve but he's at work 2 till 10. Probs wont see him till thursday night and even then he'll be all pissed and probably will just want to be with his mates, oh well. Think i'm staying at his on friday night tho. I hate it when i dont see him through the week. Makes me feel like a part time girlfriend. Well it cant be helped can it?

Starting in june i'm doubling my hours at work till i go to uni in september. The guy who works the same amount of hours as me on my department is leaving, so i said to claire as i'm doing so much overtime lately any way i'll pick up his hours till i go to uni. More money for Jenn :)

Just got my ICT result and I got a C :) better than my exams last year. So me is happy bout that.

Still wish I could stay at steves tonight tho, me hates being lonely at home.

10:16 am: Don't spoil the moment
So, at college yet again *yawns* Got my new converse the other day and they're killing my feet. Been looking up the line up for the download festival and i really want to go to that as well as leeds. My mam said she would get me my download ticket for my birthday hmmmm we'll see. Going to danis for dinner, i'm starving.

Went to rileys with gem and dani on monday, then i slept at steves on the night. Had to go to work on tuesday but it was only for four hours, Went to see my dad for a bit then i went back up steves for drinkies. Was slightly tipsy and we ended up playing junior monopoly lol. After that steve went to manorquay and i went home. Needed to catch up on ssome sleep.